great nite tonite a nice little prayer time during the concert, time with friends, and a fake kiss what more can u ask for...but yeah i kind of had a lot of deep thought about like everything like romance, life, my dad, and my future...so please pray that i gain stregnth...through the spirit of the Lord like Samson...but yeah i kind of wrote this and i thought some might like to see it so hear you go...
Attempting Surrender-
By thoughts of you am preoccupied
Though if asked it would be denied
In my mind these pictures I drew
Of u with I, and I with you…
In pure beauty you had my attention
Though each inch of your body goes unmentioned
Yet outwardly you are quite stunning
It was inward splendor that kept me running
In this race that in this way I shall not win
Yet I must examine my true motives within
Keeping my mind and focus on truth
I am tired and knowing only you can soothe
Once harmed by self influenced afflictions
Laying it all down for a preordained mission
I hear you now, shouting my name
I’ve taken up my cross and my flesh we have slain
Calling me now into the Deep
In & out of the shadows I begin to creep
These thoughts of loneliness with no way to defend
But you, you're there with me, your there with no end
Now knowing the truth doesn’t mean its all fine
For I still in some moments tend to go blind
You gave life for me though I am not worth it
Making plans so supreme, like you they are perfect
Though your purpose for me remains a mystery
Constantly I fail to see its not my job to worry
I’ll serve you for now as your will unfolds
That being mine however it remains untold
Living for you is hard, for there’s steady contenders
But for today...I’ll keep attempting surrender
but yeah hope u got something from that if not sorry if you read it...later
in brotherly love
-D-
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